in case you didn’t notice, my site has been offline for about two months. this was because i did something stupid and was too lazy to figure out what to do. i also hadn’t been writing anything on a regular basis anyway, so i left it. i recently have been thinking more things that i need to write down, so i asked around for help on what to do. although the help i recieved was not what fixed it, it did push me to look and try some more things.

now i’m back with a new theme. it’s a tad on the boring side, i’ll admit, but after my little screw-up, i have no immediate intentions of fooling around with code in order to get it to do what i want. i’m sure there are plenty of plugins to make it more personal, but i’ll get to it at a later date.

my parents are in new york at the moment, so i haven’t cleaned in a while. i have to do it tomorrow because they’ll be home tomorrow night. i hate cleaning.

i guess that’s it. i have nothing to say right now because i’m tired from hours of trying different code in different files and deleting things and then re-uploading them.

oh, i got a wii. unfortunately, i haven’t been able to play it for a while because we have no spare double a batteries. my wii remote charger should be arriving within the next couple of weeks and that should remedy the problem.

i’m just going to leave this window open and write things/observations i think throughout the day.

i miss the days when daft punk was alive and well in clubs.

why are chicks always the bass player?

i hope i get to see juno this friday. hmm, but i’m supposed to have a patio bison burger lunch . . . i guess i’ll just have to trek it back.

i’m sick of not being the weight i want to be, but i’m too lazy to exercise and i like delicious food/alcohol too much.

my hair is ridiculously easy to curl.

i want my ddr mats to arrive so i can do something remotely active and break in a ‘new’ game at the same time.

paralyzers are scarily easy to drink.

i want professional head shots.

i finally updated wordpress, but the main problem i was having still isn’t solved. oh well, it’s not important anyway.

interstella 5555: the 5tory of the 5ecret 5tar 5ytem is awesome.

i need disposable income for games (xbox 360) and cute accessories and shoes.

how does dane cook keep getting movie roles?

i’m bored and hurty.

i think i’m done because my back hurts too much and i want to nap.

i shall listen to daft punk while i sleep.

so i didn’t make it onto the argos cheerleading team, but i did make it to finals and if i hadn’t got such a god-awful question, i might’ve made the team. it was still great to go that far and if i’m in the country next year with time to spare, i may try for it again. i did manage to catch a glimpse of myself dancing in the video that the toronto sun had up and i didn’t look like a retard, so i guess that’s a plus. on the day, my prediction was that kaitlyn would make it and i wouldn’t; damn my psychic tendencies. i’m happy that one of us made it though. if i had made it, i don’t know how committed i really would’ve been. since kaitlyn made it, i guess it would’ve been fine ’cause we’d do it together, but other than that it’s pretty time consuming. i also wish i had gotten a chance to see some of the performances before i had gone, that would’ve helped too. oh well. things to keep in mind for next year. still, i never expected to even make it past round one, so i’m proud of how far i got.

party’s on saturday. bring whatever you think will be fun (games, video games, movies, music etc.) and we’ll all have a great drunken time.

so i decided to try-out for the argos cheerleading squad. i don’t expect to make it, but there’s no harm in trying. plus it’ll give me extra motivation to lose weight. i’ve let myself go in the past six months. something needs to be done and fast. it’ll be a fun two weeks trying to tone and limber myself. then i’ll get back into modelling hopefully.

at the moment, i’m going to stop procrastinating and add things to my resume so i can have a decent shot at becoming a talent scout. here goes. i hate it when i get excited about things before they even happen.

i have a confession: i actually kind of want to see/am excited about the sex and the city movie. ugh. after countless years of hating everything it stands for and the unreal implications of carrie’s lifestyle and just how carefree their lives are, i broke down and downloaded season four. this was a long time ago and i didn’t tell a soul about it, but i’m sure you might have caught a few quotes mentioned either here or in my msn name. while the shoes and the sex are great, i think i love the shallowest aspect of it: the friendship. i know that’s supposed to be the story behind the glitz but it really doesn’t portray real relationships (sexual or otherwise) at all. i think i enjoy the fantasy of perfect friends that are so close through thick and thin but without any cattiness between them. that doesn’t happen in real life. at least, i’ve never personally found it. maybe with one person but not three others at the same time. why do girls have to be so . . . petty?

i’ve been meaning to apply to jobs but i really want to redo my resume first. this has caused much procrastination. the main reason is because i don’t like to think about what i have to offer because on paper, i’ve got zilch. i think i often fall flat in interviews too because too often i don’t really want the job so i hold back, or i just make some brainless mistake like not bringing my resume. honestly though, if i send you my resume in an email two times already, do i really need to bring another one? and don’t get me started on franchises and their stupid fill in the blank forms. it’s all the exact same information that’s included on my resume, but much less legible because you made me write it out in pen. anyway, my point was that there are lots of things that i think i could be really good at, but my paper qualities won’t even get me a foot in the door. i’m not even twenty-two and it’s like it’s too late for me to start anything. maybe i’ll just try for anything.

another thing holding me back is not having a car and living in mississauga. it takes at least half an hour to get anywhere. it’s such a pain and dangerous in this cold weather. it’s also super annoying because you’re supposed to dress appropriately but when you have to take the bus you can’t wear nice shoes or a nice coat because they don’t keep you warm.

okay, i think i’ve ranted enough to be fine for a while. is anything happening tonight? i want to do something new but non-expensive. ring me.

how have i managed to survive? on a diet of video games and anime. i’m coming to a shortage of both. over the weeks i would randomly turn on my laptop to see if i could steal some wireless from anywhere. low and behold, it worked today. how’s life? complicated. i don’t think i’m up for discussing the brunt of it just yet, but i will say that it’s not good and it is a lifelong, life changing event.

being away from the internet and then coming back has made me want to get away from the former me even more. maybe i’ll try for nyu if the australia thing doesn’t work out. i just need a fresh start and new people that i really, genuinely like. oh, and money. lots of that would be nice too. i can’t say i’ve been trying real hard though. it’s been difficult the past few weeks with all the snow and cold and no internet. i’m not exactly motivated to go out when i have to take the bus to places that probably won’t hire me. ugh. job hunting is so depressing. i think i hate the travelling the most. just give me the job and let me work. i don’t want to be part of a team, i just want to do what i’m paid for and then leave. too anti-social? i guess that’s because i’m imagining a job that i’ll have just for the money.

stupid wordpress has another update. surprise surprise. i don’t have the patience right now. now i’m caught up in a guide on how to teach yourself japanese (my minor when i go back to school).