Jun 16
looking back
i know i already wrote a grad thingy. but i can’t help but feel SO sentimental this week. i guess it doesn’t help that i’ve been watching old, emotional episodes of buffy. come on, you know you love it. that series was great. it holds so many memories. i can remember exactly what i was doing at certain points in each season. it’s almost eerie. i miss that show.
i should be sleeping. but i can’t face just laying there with my thoughts. it’s too lonely. oh god how i miss yesteryear. there’s been a dinginess surrounding me for the past, i don’t know, month. maybe i’m just in a confusing time of my life. there are all these connections from the past coming back. the future is right there, and i can’t take the two of them together. it doesn’t make sense. it should make it easier. but it’s something i don’t want it to be. i want it to be the past. not a new future with past elements. i’m not afraid of change. it’s not even the fact that things were easier back then. maybe it’s because i have no idea what’s coming. so i’m holding myself back. reminiscing about the good old times, and clawing at the ground heading into nothing.
*hold on to the memory, it’s all you’ve got*
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I really should get an account, but i’m far too lazy. Maybe I will soon. Anyways, I wanted to post under the first blog, but…that didn’t make sense. So I’m just going to post under this one. Yes, we will go to New York one day. All my sentences are really short becuase I’m so exhasuted. School is finally over! Holy Mother of God. On another note, I did not enjoy Buffy at all but maybe that’s coz I never really gave it much of a chance. Back to the other note, I can relate to what you’ve said. Well it’s not really the same note, I guess, but a different note altogether. Who cares, not like it matters. Anyways, so…returning to the note that is neither the first note nor the second, I empathize with you. Memories are good. But you know what they say…you can’t spend all your time looking back or….you’ll trip? Something like that. LOL. This would be considerably more effective if I could actually remember the damn quote or was not too lazy to look it up. But you know how it is. And I’m sure you’ve heard that quote before. Something about looking backwards, forwards, downwards and upwards…but never only one, or something. Or was that just born out of my imagination just now? No idea. All’s I know is I’m exhausted and probably incomprehensible. Good night Whitney, and have hope in the future despite its uncertainty.
buffy was fucking awesome. i’ve been watching it tons lately too… i missed so much of that season, nice to be putting the pieces together, finally. 8pm on space! sigh, i miss all the old shows… glad family guy’s coming back at least. but buffy was running out of steam anyway, nothing beats high school, senior year. i will definitely miss you next year. you’re, well, my oldest friend. aside from… JACKIE! ha… ha. but yeah. we’ve managed to keep in touch through high school, even though half the time we’d go for a year without seeing each other. i’m glad we have the connection that we do. thanks a lot for everything, don’t know where i’d be without you (that’s beyond the cliche and you know it!). you’re just the best=) best of luck next year, we will keep in touch, and i will invite you to my wedding (are you still against marriage? meant to ask about that), and all that stuff. i’m tired. stupid morning exams. good night.
-talena
and i looked in your archives and tried the sexiest body part/talent thing. for talena – apparently my ass is the sexiest. and my talent is looking innocent. not that far off the mark, the innocent part that is. i also tried qing, on a whim, and it said my ears are the sexiest, and my special talent is absolutely nothing. glad i changed my name, like that has a bearing on anything.
-talena