Aug 30
stop crying your heart out
i don’t know what’s going on. i just want a response, something to let me know if he knows. i can’t go on empty hellos, and faceless goodbyes. what the fuck is happening? why isn’t anything happening? why isn’t he trying? and if he doesn’t want to try, fucking end it. right now, what i’m getting is that he doesn’t want to put any effort into making me feel better or even to try and support his position. or maybe he has no idea about these posts and he thinks everything’s fine. i don’t know, i can’t tell. i don’t have the energy to play these kind of games. i just want to know the situation. here’s the thing. i shouldn’t have to go to him. this isn’t a power thing or anything like that. if he cared enough, he’d want to fix things. fuck, i’m the one who’s mad and i want to go to him so badly and just give in, just so things will be alright. shouldn’t he feel like that too? ok, i can’t assume he’s read it. this is killing me inside. i don’t want to say to him, ‘oh, by the way, did you read that post from two days ago?’ and if he hasn’t tell him to. i don’t want to do that. so i guess i’ll just wait.