obliviously obvious

i don’t know if i wrote this already or not, but i really enjoy downloading entire albums by artists that i don’t like. for example, avril lavigne and evanescence. it gives me some sort of sick satisfaction in knowing that they’ll never get my money, but i get their work. mmm . . . makes me feel all warm and tingly inside. i feel kind of guilty when i download albums by artists that i respect, but they cost like $25. on that note (somehow), i like placebo. androgyny is attractive in a casual sense. not in women, but in men, yes. a woman should look like a woman, but a guy can be really hot if he’s kind of girly. eyeliner on guys is the hottest thing. cross dressers are taking it too far, but androgyny is definitely a good thing.

i think i’m going to get my ears pierced again tomorrow. should i go for the whole looks uneven but actually isn’t thing, or the opposite of that. i can get 2 in one ear, to have a total of 4 in that ear and 2 in the other, or one in each and have 3 in each ear. hmm, so many options. i have to get a tattoo at some point too.

i’m so glad i have no school tomorrow. yay for shopping time. boo for pain that will make me not want to go shopping. i think i’ll treat myself tomorrow. to what, i don’t know. i have a lot of stuff to buy. i have to buy shoes even. my plan is to buy 2 pairs of really cheap stretchy jeans that fit me now, and one pair of expensive jeans that i can just fit into, so they’ll be perfect when i lose weight. i think i’ve become more shallow over the past year. oh well. at least i admit i’m a terrible person. that’s much better than being in denial . . . or is it?

i feel like i should write something meaningful, or like i discovered something today, but i can’t remember what. maybe i’m just crazy. i really need to start bringing my gameboy to school. i should eat more froot loops. it’s funny how time passes. well, not really, but it’s interesting at least. things change and grow, relationships evolve, people move in and out of your life. i don’t know where i’m going with this. some thoughts make me really happy. most of the time, it’s just because i’m thinking of someone, and that someone makes me happy. or it’ll be a situation with that person that makes me happy. like living with jeff. that thought makes me happy. and not just surface happy, like soulfully happy. i should go to bed soon. i need the sleep right now, plus i have a long day of shopping tomorrow.