obliviously obvious

it’s terrible when you hate someone really bad. it’s worse when you hate someone else just because they remind you of that one person due to one feature. i just hate them so bad. grrr . . . the hatred. i’m telling you the truth. i mean this, i’m okay (trust me). i’m not okay. man, why does it have to bother me so much? you’d think it was someone i see all the time, but i don’t. i rarely see them, but when i do, i want to make of fun them and then punch them in the nose. no, face. no, i don’t know what i want to do. i think i’d make fun of them mostly. hahahaha . . . that’d be great.

hooray for taking days off after huge unit tests that you don’t really want to do, but feel oddly confident about anyway. hooray also for singing as a great stress reliever and practice for my auditions, but not really. i should study some more, because i’m not at the level where i should be. i need to get a really good mark on this test too. i haven’t failed anything yet, but i did get like 56 on my last unit test. i didn’t study at all an i had been “sick” for a large part of the lessons, mostly the whole price elasticity thing, which i thought i knew but apparently only 56% knew. let’s go for that 85% this time around.

my back hurts for some reason and i’m really tired. i want to go to sleep, but i have to shower first and study more. man, i so don’t feel like doing either of those things. stupid wheel of fortune. i say that like i spent hours playing it, when i only played one 15 minute game. come to think of it, i don’t know where all of my time went. i got home at 6:30 and somehow four hours have passed and the only significant thing i’ve done is work out for 50 minutes. i won’t rant about that at the moment because i’m always so up and down with my body. it’s pretty good some days, okay on others and horrible 50% of the time. meh. i’m doing what i can.

now for some good old fashioned silverchair while studying for my test and trying to download the deftones dicography.