obliviously obvious

tired. making it short.

fun today. garden state=awesome. makes you think. soundtrack very good as well. too much chinese food. not enough exercise. starting to show in physique. damn you delicious fat! fuck i hate being fat. blah. working out for me tomorrow and the rest of the week. but not today. too tired. even mind says ‘BED! you crazy bitch, sleep!’ wish i could sleep and watch movies at the same time. i would watch garden state again. this song really is a very good song. has that whole atmospheric/feeling sound to it. it makes you feel more than hear. good music to be stoned to. ok, bedtime. so tired. but i don’t want to sleep. i’m stupid.

i’d write an entry right now, but i’m a little too tired. i just got in from a x-mas party at dev’s house. i have to admit, it was a lot of fun. it was great just hanging out with those people again. lots of good food too. if i don’t start working out again, i’m going to look like jolly st. nick.

i have so much wrapping to do tomorrow. well, i guess it’s not that much. only 4 things really. i want them to look really nice though. i suppose i should try to sleep. my eyes say yes yes, but my mind says no no. tough break brain. suck it up princess. given how long it took me to remember that saying, i’d say it needs rest more than it’s letting on. bed, serious this time. happy christmas eve day everyone! wish you all the happiness in the world!

p.s. thanks to jeff for the ride there and nam for the ride home.

things are sucking pretty bad for me right now. my holiday is being wasted away because i don’t have enough friends. well, i don’t have enough friends that are underage. and the ones that i do have are busy doing . . . i don’t know what they’re doing, but they don’t invite me. and the ones that aren’t those people are busy trying to see everyone they can before they go back to god only knows where. and everyone else is a jerk that i don’t really care to see anyway. i’m anti-social, so sue me. the real problem is i hate being anti-social. oh, i know, i’m a selective (picky) anti-social. although i’m “desperate” for friends, i’m not that desperate. everywhere i could go, i wouldn’t enjoy because i’d be surrounded by idiots.

this song seems appropriate right now. blah. fuck it. and the ex. i like that song right now too.

things are still weird. i just want things to be the way they were like a week ago. before i started thinking about everything, and before i opened my mouth. hah, this song is so appropriate, but not from my end. i have a lot of mental problems that i need to work out. i push to see if they’ll push back. why am i so screwed up? oh well. here’s to better times. i can do this.

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