Mar 17
i’m a bad girl
according to my underwear. cut me some slack, they were on sale. i scribbled a few things down to write about because i knew i’d forget if i didn’t. first on the agenda, sleep. actually, it’s the lack of sleep i’ve been getting. i cannot sleep no matter how hard i try. even sleeping pills don’t work. even on the nights where i fall asleep easier, i wake up only four hours after i fell asleep. because of this, i’m always tired. it’s insomnia. it’s terrible.
i always used to be one of those people that thought i could never sleep with anyone. now, i find it easier to sleep with jeff next to me. he’s not even close, but just knowing that he’s there is some sort of comfort. so, i don’t like sleeping by myself anymore.
from last wednesday to this tuesday, i didn’t wear a bra. when i put one on again, it felt really weird. i went almost a week. i find that pretty interesting. i also found that 100% brushed cotton underwear is the most comfortable thing ever. regular cotton is all well and good, but that brushed cotton is amazing.
i’ve been so bored the past couple of weeks. do not say “get a job” because that’s bullshit. then i’ll just be bored in a different environment. plus, i’ll be bitter as well.
i want to get professional hair and make-up done. the real deal that costs hundreds of dollars by people that know what they’re doing. that would be too awesome. speaking of awesome, laurier is an awesome university.
some universities are dicks. they say a certain item has to be sent to them by a certain deadline or that’s the end. that’s it. no excuses, no explanations, nothing. i realize this is how the real world works, but what if you couldn’t make a payment in time or something of that nature. there should be some leeway. well, laurier has that leeway. they said that all the audition things had to be sent in by march 7th. i sent mine in on time, but i got an email stating that if you hadn’t made the deadline, it’s okay because you can still book an audition date; those dates were simply for their scheduling needs. no penalties, no guilt trips, just send in the form now. i thought that was pretty awesome, considering that u of t is such a big dick about stuff like that. u of t isn’t even that good. they’re jerks. at least in the music department. they’re self-serving, narcissistic assholes.
my thighs are too fat. but to get them smaller, other things have to get smaller. believe me, i know, i already did it once. god damn you thighs. it’s things like these that really make me consider liposuction. that’s what it was invented for. oh well. i’ll just try exercise again and see what happens. man, i hate this so much. not that i have to work, but just that they’re still too fat. it disgusts me.
i need to buy more clothes. i need summer clothes. i bought some nice stuff today. you’re very welcome to help out by buying me something from any of the sites i listed below. or, just give me money. i love money.
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help me. i feel like i’m dying, and i think it’s because of lack of sleep. i feel like throwing up all the time. this is hell. but i can’t FUCKING SLEEP!
Well, okay, I really know very little on the subject of not being able to sleep because I fucking hate sleep, and stay up for days to avoid it, so when I actually DO succumb to it, i crash hard. BUT, I wouldn’t be much of a friend if I didn’t at least ATTEMPT to help ya… But it’s kinda a shitty thing to suggest, but I’ll suggest it anyways… POT. Smoke pot like, an hour before bed, and then when you crash, you will sleep well! Well, I know it works for lots of people, so it might work for you. Other than that, all I can suggest is chillin with me! Heh… At least if you have to be awake, you can be awake with someone. I’m always here for ya.
I agree with Sean.
Pot is a wonderful thing.
Remember I had that month where i couldn’t sleep at night, so i smoked a joint to my face daily for a good week? My sleeping patterns went right back to normal.
Try it.
fuck you guys!
You could even smoke pot while chillin with me and paula! best of three worlds!
NOOOOOOOOOOOO . . . brandon cut his hair. it’s like pardon me short. well, at least he can grow it to morning view length again. *sigh*
Ah well, he’s still gorgeous.
and check out victoria’s secret:
http://www2.victoriassecret.com/collection/?cgname=OSSALCLOBRA&cgnbr=OSSALCLOBRA&rfnbr=728
they have some really nice long tops, and their spring sale is pretty impressive.
-tal
yeah, if you’re american, which you clearly are at the moment.
I like the way you think Sean…I really do.
=)
Exactly. so if you see one you like for a reasonable price (read: < $35USD), let me know. saves me the trouble of thinking of a b-day present.
-tal
alright! that’s totally awesome tal! i love you!
aw man, there are so many that i like. plus i can’t try them on to see if they’d look as good on me as they do on the models. it’s too hard to choose.
So yeah.. tops are cool, brandons cool, but pot and me and paula are cooler… i think we all see where this is going.
you’re going to buy me a top too sean? WOW that’s fantabulous!