obliviously obvious

- a butterfly under the glass -

Mar 25

friends

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i don’t have any. and even the ones that i do have, don’t do things. or they have friends that i don’t really like being around that they’re always around. or they go to places that i can’t go to. so i’m stuck doing nothing always and it blows. it blows hard. i know most of the problem is me, but i can’t help the fact that 95% of the people that i know, i hate. i’m just not one of those people that other people call for some reason. like they never seem to include me. i guess it’s because they think i don’t want to be included, which for the most part is true. all the possible ‘friends’ i could make wouldn’t really be friends, they’d be acquaintances that i might do something on the weekends with, if they’re not busy with their core group of friends. not to mention the fact that i’m only 18. that cuts my options in half right off the bat. most people have fakes, so they just go anyway. but not me, no no. i’m not lucky enough to get one. don’t slip on the self-pity. i’ll clean it up in the morning.

10 comments

10 Comments so far

  1.  March 25th, 2005 7:42 pm

    i want to play jet force gemini, but i can’t find it. damn.

  2.  March 26th, 2005 6:20 am

    I am always gonna be your friend, whether we see eachother every day, or not. Call me more, and Ill do stuff with ya. We have enough free time to deal with it, we just never do. If you wanna do more stuff, just ask, and Ill do my best.

  3.  March 26th, 2005 7:13 am

    my abs are killing me. i guess that’s what i get for doing 100 crunches after not doing anything in like 3 months.

  4.  March 26th, 2005 7:22 am

    why do i think these things? these impossible, insane, hurtful things. shouldn’t the medication be helping with this? i suppose it’s only been 3 days. i can’t stop thinking like this.

  5.  March 26th, 2005 7:37 am

    You sound like you just need a big hug. Im gonna hug you the next time i see you.

  6.  March 26th, 2005 10:38 am

    Yo..I know how you feel.
    Just need to find some equals….I think….I hope.

  7.  March 26th, 2005 7:32 pm

    you do it to yourself whitney. u know you do. so stop complaining and do something about it.

    …and I’m saying this with a lot of love, I promise. I ask u to do shit all the time, and u never want to.

  8.  March 26th, 2005 8:32 pm

    that’s bullshit paula. in the last year you’ve probably asked me to do something twice.

  9.  March 27th, 2005 2:41 am

    if us doing something didnt mean me just walking to your place and sitting alone, we’d do more… I wish that stupid red curtain burst into flames and never existed again.. it gives you the power to sit in another room without feeling bad, i hate it.

  10.  March 27th, 2005 2:59 am

    AHA! Now we might be going bowling… see? It’s all coming up milh… uhh.. whitney!