obliviously obvious

my last post was a lazy one, but i intended to write another one sooner than now. and if i didn’t suck so bad at formulating and typing sentences, which i apparently do, this one would be coming along much faster. if you don’t want to read all about the party or any of my random thoughts, here’s the ending for you: i overthink and overanalyze everything. now onto the details.

friday night i spent with tal and jeff. we played some mini-putt where those two got holes in ones and i almost won the whole thing. lousy jeff and his use of the force. it was after midnight when we were done and we felt like eating chinese food. what a better place than downtown. makes sense to me, plus they’re open at that time. so we go and we drive around for a while trying to find the open chinese restaurants. hold on one second, i’m writing an e-mail. then we got chinese food and jeff found a hair in his noodles so that was really gross. then we went home. forgive my lack of story-telling enthusiasm.

saturday was jeff’s party. that was good. random mix of people and small social crap that i don’t want to care about. yeah whatever. it was fun. i had a good time. personal thinking crap ensued, as it always does after weed. i talked myself out of it and had a good night with jeff.

i wish i wasn’t so insecure. i also wish i wasn’t such a terrible person, because that would help me be secure. when i’m honest with myself, i know i wouldn’t want that anyway, no matter how much it seems i do. i think i’m due for another speech. not so much for what’s being said in it, but for the effort and care that it takes to say it. that shows more than what’s actually said, but the words are great too. saying that speech shows me that you want me to know how much you care. i’m crazy, but you know that. and i’m going to sleep, because i’m really hot and i don’t know why.

3:42 a.m. – happy belated birthday talena! you are now 19 and can partake in drinking festivities that occur in public places. not long for me now. only two more weeks. you bastards better not go anywhere before that! that would just be cruel. cruel, i say! bastards (once more for something). and i have a doozey of a question to ask. this is going to be great. ha ha ha, i’m so evil.