i enjoy reading items from the past and realizing that absolutely none of the goals which were supposed to be met in the “near future”, have still not been met five years later. that’s quite comforting to me as it quells the frustrated anger that usually occurs while reading the perceived notions of a clearly inferior specimen. the same incomplete goals are also the cause of unfair advantages which were supposed to be given only on the condition of the goals being actually met. they have not been met to this day, yet favours are still handed out. i don’t know if it’s ignorance that leads to the blatant favouritism, or just out-and-out indifference for the one side. either way, it’s obvious and vexing.

that’s all i really needed to say. i’m glad i reminded myself to gain a little perspective on the situation. it cleared things up and boosted my confidence. shame on me for needing to stand on someone else’s back to see through the crowd. though, is there really any other way in this world? i’m sure my comeuppance is due, if it has not already been paid. at least i’ve gotten most of mine out of the way already. we’ll just see what happens from now on.