Oct 21
silence
i took the smart serve class today. i’ll get the card in a couple of weeks, i guess.
things are awkward right now and i can’t stand it. i’ve really never felt this way before. i feel anxious, to put it simply. it’s like i have to catch up or something. you know those moments when you’re a kid and someone you care about or an adult accuses you of doing something that you didn’t do? and you’re trying so hard to explain what actually happened, or prove your innocence but nothing you say convinces them? that’s how i feel right now. it’s like a ‘why won’t you listen to me!?’ kind of feeling, but the crying kind, not the angry kind. it’s mixed with this overwhelming urge to go back. i can’t think about this anymore.
i was looking at the humane society and ospca sites yesterday. i’m seriously thinking about volunteering there either as a dog walker or a bottle feeder.
i can’t write anymore. there’s too much going on in my head that i can’t write about. i just can’t take this.
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