i should be sleeping because i have to wake up and go to my last bartending class. i also have to get there by taking the bus and the subway. i might just skip the bus part and take a taxi to the subway. by the looks of it, if i want to make it on time, i’ll have to take a taxi. the first bus i can get is at 9:04 am and then i have to take the subway, so i’ll probably just make it or be late. but if i take a taxi i can be on time.

i really love the feeling of being in a new relationship. everything’s the first time and i constantly want to be with and see the person. unfortunately, in my circumstance, i don’t really think it’s a two way street with these feelings. i ruined something beautiful and i hate myself for it. i’m hoping and wishing that things can go back to how they were. all i can do is try my hardest and wait. the rest isn’t up to me. i miss and love him like crazy.

now i will go to bed. i’ll still look like crap in the morning, but whatever. i’m not pulling an all-nighter.