i have to wake up at 10:30 am to get my hair done. finally, i won’t have roots anymore. this is also my last time going blonde. i’m having the base lightened and more streaks put in. my next hair appointment after that will consist of a nice, rich, warm brown colour.

i ran out of my meds yesterday, so things are starting to get spinny. i hope i’ll be okay through the night. last time i went two days without it, i could barely move because the spinning was so bad. it was really bad. i wasn’t even moving. i was in bed trying to sleep but i couldn’t because i was spinning too violently. i’m getting the pills in the morning before going to my appointment, otherwise i won’t make it through the whole thing.

i’ve been distracted by other things. so, off i go.

7:16 am – ‘what i want is to be needed. what i need is to be indispensable to somebody. who i need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. somebody addicted to me. a mutual addiction.’ – chuck palahniuk

i knew there was a reason why i liked his writing.