now i’m just frustrated. it’s mostly my fault, but part of it isn’t. i like spur of the moment things as much as the next person, but when you know something hours in advance, there’s no point in keeping it from me until later. that just leads to me wasting my time and thinking that something else is going to happen. not to mention that this screws up tomorrow, too. don’t ask me how. it will seem dumb and shallow to most people, but it still pisses me right off.

i’ll use my spare time to ponder how to preserve what i’ve got right now. i’ll just leave the rest and touch-up tomorrow. maybe i’ll take it off. yeah, i will.