okay, not really, but i’m sure it’s close enough.
i glanced through the booklet of my newly arrived course, and as with all subjects not dealing with numbers, it intrigued me. i’m looking forward to ‘learning’ again. learning is really just fitting terms with ideas/thoughts i’ve already formulated, processed and fully understood. maybe i should challenge myself and try math; stretch my thinking in another direction and become smarter and more diverse. become more lateral instead of linear. or am i lateral wanting to be more linear? it’s probably the latter.
i’m hoping to go into audio engineering or entertainment business (not really what it’s called, but i’m too lazy to reach two feet down and check) in september. that reminds me that i have to fill out an application form today. hopefully it won’t be more than $10 000 for one year. if it is, i’m just shit out of luck. i’ll have real job searching to do come september. along with that comes my true joy of learning music again, which will happen no matter what my school situation is.
i think i’ve had almost enough time of doing nothing. i shouldn’t be thinking about a year from now, but i can’t stop myself. i suppose the upcoming year will help determine what i’ll do. i hate that i have to plan and know right now what i want for next year. i have to start applying to universities/colleges (more money, ugh i can’t believe i’m doing it again!) and fret about making the right choices, having enough money, where i’m going to live and essentially what i hope to be doing for the rest of my life. is it any wonder i’ve been putting it off for so long?
oy vey! enough talk of this. time to watch some evil dead two. i think i’ll get dead alive in the meantime. ha ha ha.
p.s. things are really great right now. i’m super happy. i only want one thing to happen.