obliviously obvious

today was a bad day, and i don’t think things are going to get any better in the near future. i hate my mother for being so negative and making me doubt my decision to go to metalworks. honestly, right now i believe i should’ve just gotten a job and applied to university instead. i suppose there would’ve been the same negative reactions with that too. they expect me to know exactly what i’m going to do with my life after i’m done. their reasoning being, ‘you’re twenty years old, for god’s sake. you should be living on your own and have a full time job.’ or something along those ridiculous extremes. well, at least i’m getting an education and i’m not going to get pregnant in three years. it doesn’t help me think i’m actually worth something when my parents are telling me otherwise.

in semi-related news, if anyone knows of any jobs in the mississauga area, tell me. i’ve been looking around. square one would be a good choice since my school is just around the corner. i just feel like a chump working for $8.00/hr when i could be a bartender and make so much more. of course, all the good jobs aren’t close. speaking of which, i really have to get my ass down to take my bartending test. i got harped for that one today, too.

i’m not looking forward to getting up at ass o’clock for 8:30 am class. i have a delightful three and a half hour wait for my next class after that one. i’m debating whether or not to go home. i guess it gives me a good hour, but the money . . . on the plus side, guest lecture with alan cross.

i do not want to be me right now.

p.s. i’m tired of spiders trying to build webs on my face. did i write that before? i don’t remember.