i’m sad, dizzy and overheated. maybe it’s because i didn’t take my pill today. given the time, i won’t take it until i wake up. i feel like there’s a huge emptiness that i have to fill. it’s all my obsessive compulsive habits mixed with my loneliness. it creates this unstoppable need to know everything, or to connect with someone and just be. i need a moment of clarity/connection. i miss those times at random parties when i’d have open conversations with people i’d never met before or hadn’t talked to in a really long time and just connected in an honest, human level. i crave that right now. i hope i can get it soon, even just a glimpse of it. a glimpse of it on that day would just about do me in.