i’ve reached over 500 posts. . . . yay.

things will never be the same. how do i stop caring after three and a half years? this is too hard. it’s like losing my other fucking half. it wasn’t supposed to happen this way. it wasn’t supposed to happen this way at all. after all the stupid things i’d done he still cared. i was -his- ridiculous.

FUCK!

i don’t have the emotional strength to remove pictures and such, but every time i see them i cry. every thing in my life is connected to that man. how can i possibly move on? what do i do?

p.s. it’s unfair, but i wish nothing but pain upon her. i’m a cruel bitch that doesn’t deserve happiness. so i hope to spread my misery to others who deserve it.