obliviously obvious

because the only reason i’m going to sleep is so i can wake up and sing/belt my little heart out to various musicals and operas without worrying about volume. sometimes i really wonder if i should just do it and forget about having a steady decent income. hah!

update: why am i still up? i’m not tired but i have to work tonight and i know i’ll be exhausted if i try to pull an all nighter. i think i’m just excited at having new singing material. not sleeping will make me sound like crap though, so i should sleep, even if it’s just a little.

i’ve had a job for two days and i’m already spending money like mad. having all my birthday money compiled in my bank account doesn’t help either. i’m fairly certain i won’t have to pay the $500 that someone took out on my visa, but if i do i can manage. i won’t be happy but i won’t have to worry about where the money’s going to come from.

there’s lots of stuff i intend to write about, but i don’t know if i’ll ever get around to it. i still haven’t written about death note, but i just bought an awesome lighter that’s based on it. i also intend on buying at least two death note bags as well.

i don’t know if i can actually take the internship because i just discovered that i have classes from 12-3 monday-friday which pretty much rules out either going to the office or the class. i’ll have to call them and ask what kind of hours it is and if i can’t do it, hopefully i can go back in september when i’ll be (mostly) done with school. i really, really want to do this now though. i’m quite fed up with school to be completely honest. maybe if the administration wasn’t so lax i could be more disciplined. i’ll just have to stick it out for the next two months and see how it goes.

i plan on buying a nintendo ds lite, so if i end up staying with the internship at least i’ll have entertainment for the two-four hours of traveling i have every day. i also want/need to buy a new guitar controller because the one i currently have is too sensitive for my taste.

i told you i was spending like mad!

i got the internship. my only concern is that it takes about two hours to get there by public transportation. even if i could drive, i don’t have a car that i could use to go all that way. i’m still thrilled that i got it though.

i’m also the permanent bartender at yuk yuk’s now. it’s more work than i thought. i was kind of spoiled at sin city because i didn’t have to do any of the prep work or back room inventory. now i do, so i have to make that adjustment. i make more per hour than club bartenders, but i get far fewer tips. i say this like i’ve worked here longer than two nights. my first night was stressful. i didn’t know i was going to be actually working not just shadowing and it was unbelievably busy. we’ll see how things go from now on.

i was going to have my birthday party this friday and i guess i still could, but i wouldn’t be at the club until 1 am because i have to work. my plan was to order a keg and reserve a room etc. but it seems excessive if i can’t even enjoy it in its entirety. meh, maybe later in the summer just for kicks.

today was so great! i’m glad too because yesterday was so crap. i’m still not out of that mess yet, but today more than makes up for it.

the interview for the internship at wind-up records was great after a shaky start. even if they don’t choose me now, they said they definitely want to have me in for the next time internships start. they had 350 applicants but they only asked eight for an interview. quite frankly, i was floored when they told me that, but proud and happy. i’ll write more about this later.

i just got back from my interview at yuk yuk’s and i start shadowing tomorrow at 8pm.  as much as i was hoping for it, i didn’t think i’d be starting this soon. i’m still in a tester position, but i think it’ll work out.

i have long tales to regale you with about both experiences, but i’m still too caught up in this moment of success to write about it.

i just found pure gold. i love how great i am at being evil. while it’s still gold, it’s not nearly as bad as i thought it would be. hammy and typical, but not really ‘bad’ per se. i can say for certain that i am not a singer for musicals.

so the anniversary threw me for a bigger loop than i expected. i’m not sure, but i think i might have lost three months worth of recovery. i feel like i’m back in march. i hate it. today wasn’t so bad, but yesterday was terrible. i haven’t had a day like that in a (relatively) long time.  anyway, i’ll spare you and myself the repetitive prattle contained in every post that dealt with this.

my mom fell and hurt her ankle this morning. after a trip to the emergency room the radiologist said ‘it’s probably not broken, but if she comes back in a few days the bone will have separated so we’ll know for sure’. fun stuff. i don’t normally write about things like this, but for some reason i feel like i should, at least for posterity or as a marker of some sort. maybe that’s why i’m incredibly good at remembering dates and when things happened. yeah, this post will probably only make sense to me. is there a point, then, in making it public? i suppose not, but there’s no point in making it private either and that’s more work.

other stuff has happened, i’m sure, i just can’t remember right now.  hey, i said i was good at remembering when things happened, not what. 

the record company called me for the internship and i have to call them back to set up an interview for friday morning.  i also got a call back from a job i applied to over a month ago. i had no idea what the guy was talking about until i checked my email history. i don’t know whether i’ll try for that one. it’s a receptionist job? something clerical at least.

as crazy as this might sound, i think i miss math. a teacher of mine was describing an upcoming course and noted that it was complex, involving math, equations, logistics etc. i actually got a little excited. i thought i was going to really enjoy a challenge. then i was perturbed by my excitement. i’m beginning to think i’m more technically/science inclined than i’ve always thought. i really just need to pick something and shine in it. i’ve always thought that i couldn’t do well in things, but now i realize that i just didn’t work at it, at all. shit in, shit out. effort goes a long way.

in short, i don’t suck at life. not entirely.