obliviously obvious

i desperately need a job. why you may ask? to responsibly pay off my debts? so i can learn about finance management and pay bills? no. it’s so i can buy guitar hero III – legends of rock and the rock band special edition package. the rock band package is a sweet deal so i need to get money fast to pre-order it. come to think of it, i still need to pick up my paycheque and i have a government cheque to cash. that should cover the pre-order. should i do the responsible thing and pay things off instead? meh, i’ll do that when i have a job. there’s always christmas too. ooh, i can’t wait.

i’d like to go for a walk. my main reasons being that it’s a lovely autumn day, i have a package to pick up and most importantly, i need to pick up my prescription as i’ve already skipped a day. however, given my condition due to the latter, i don’t really feel up to par for a walk nor any excursion that doesn’t involve a bed. oh yeah, i forgot to mention that i’m also exhausted due to my superior plan of staying up all night so i could walk to get my meds and package. stupid dizziness. i guess it also doesn’t help that all i’ve been watching for the past, well, twenty-four hours has been anime and you know what that means: subtitles. tv is a little more tiring when you have to read everything. don’t believe me? ask a deaf person or if you’re entirely pc, read a book.

i’m beginning to think (realize?) that this is only making sense/entertaining to me. off to my death walk. (i assume i’ll pass out or spin into some deadly trees on my way to the pharmacy, that’s if i even do go, which i probably won’t.)

i’m also pissed off but only when i think about it or it’s brought to my attention. *insert numerous japanese insults/swears*

have you ever looked at something that was so perfect it physically hurt?

thanks to the dream i had last night i feel like dating a scenester. you know the type. i don’t know what’s wrong with me. i guess scene kids aren’t all that bad. they’re just usually dumb. some of them have a tongue-in-cheek approach to the whole thing and like it purely for aesthetics, which i guess might make them genuine scenesters. i’ll admit if i was younger and had fewer brain cells i’m sure i’d dabble in it; i have a penchant for faux glam/grunge pop-rock style. i did, after all, buy a handcuff necklace and guitar pick bracelet two weeks ago. i’m assuming that’s what i have to pick up from the post office. $8 charge on a package worth $25. that’s a kick in the non-existent balls. i wasn’t expecting that. you can be sure i’ll be asking about it.

i think i’ll finally pick up my paycheque tomorrow. i don’t know why they can’t just send it to me. oh well. i have to return their shirt too. i’ll have to febreze it because i left it wet too long before putting it in the dryer and now it smells foisty. maybe i’ll just do that load again since the whole load went that way.

i might put in resumes tomorrow. i’m definitely going grocery shopping. there are certain things i need and have been craving. i should get in contact with wind-up records. hmm, maybe not yet.

i guess with a full day planned i should sleep. it’s my damn music ocd acting up again.

random aside: i think i’m a d now. at first i thought it was just going to be temporary but they’ve stuck around for a good four months or so. i guess it’s good because i haven’t gained weight. i do need to lose fat and tone though. that’s the tough stuff. blah.

a long time ago i wrote how i go through phases of interests. i’ll cycle through anime, music and video games as my main time eater. right now i’m in an anime/manga phase. reading off a computer screen is always annoying but paying $10 a book is more so. where is this leading? nowhere. i just want to listen to my anime music but can’t find anything to do that’s stimulating enough but not distracting. plus, my internet’s unbearably slow due to me downloading a gazillion anime series.

there are so many things i need to do. a lot of them i just think i need to do but they don’t really.

should i go to this concert tomorrow? i haven’t been out of the house in a while. god i’m sad.

i miss things. mexico or not? i really shouldn’t spend the money, but i really want to see incubus again. maybe i should send a message and see if my hunch is correct and then base it on that. at least then i know i’m not wasting money. it’s not a waste if that doesn’t happen, it’s just too expensive for right now.

there’s thanksgiving to ‘look forward to’. i’ll have fun on saturday.

bah. there’s so much i want to do creatively and career-wise etc, yet i never make a step towards any of it. even if i did do what i want to do so badly, i don’t know if i’d make it all the way through or even gain anything from it besides knowledge. i really just want to skip ahead and learn opera. or travel the world. i’m in a sighing mood.