Jul 10
wish we were older
*warning* this is written with no sleep and many pain-killers. be prepared for typos, missing/wrong words and nonsense. more than usual. believe it. *warning*
i would frequently see the video for ’shake it’ and swear i knew the ‘emo/scene’ looking kid from it. i guess that’s what i get for having acquaintances who are fashionable and for being molested with dyed black straightened hair, facial piercings and super skinny jean images. anyway, i looked them (metro station) up and they’re from hollywood, so i don’t know him. maybe he looks familiar from some sort of weird early morning family channel viewing, since he turns out to be miley cyrus’ half-brother. anyway, as i’ve said in the past, i’m sort of a sucker for the whole scene look no matter how conformist or homosexual it may be. i like girly guys. androgyny is sex. needless to say, i love trace cyrus. the tattoos really help too.
the music is actually pretty good. it reminds me of the half of p!atd that i adore. not to mention the lyrics are super romantic but with just the right amount of naughtiness, innuendo and ambiguity to make it non-schmaltzy and possibly about drugs and not a girl. but because i am a stupid (single) girl, i like to imagine the words are for me. that sounds much more idiotic than it is, but i suppose it really is that idiotic. i mean, i don’t really think it’s written for me, but the whole fantasy idea of possibly having someone i.e trace write it for me is fun.
in serious news, i finally got a full-time job. not as much money as i wanted, but we’ll see how it goes for now. hehehe, i love trace. sorry, i’m listening to the album and his voice is nice and breathy so im all giddy. oh god, i’m such an idiot.
at times like this i always wonder what am i going to do with my life and i realize that i really, really love just doing nothing. i can’t do domething i love as a job because then it will be my job and i won’t love it because i have to do it. there’s something wrong with my programming where if i must do something i automatically hate it and never want to do it. even if it’s something i really love. even things that are really stupid. i’m the ultimate stubborn rebel, to ridiculous heights (lengths?).
i don’t know if i can do the whole school thing again. mandatory assignments, attendance etc. will totally screw me just like in the past. maybe if it’s part time. but i don’t like doing something all the time. like i said, i really like doing nothing. i would much rather be bored and have to do nothing than have things to do and be busy. let’s face it, if you have things to do, 85% of the time it’s things you don’t want to do and not actually entertaining things.
i think maybe part of my problem is that i’m a super multi-tasker to the point where i can’t function unless i’m doing two or three things at the same time. but i also have to be liking at least two of the things i’m doing. i wish i could put on a hat that rewired my brain for school and work and then took it off to enjoy my nothingness.
i should be getting the internet fo’ realz pretty soon. maybe i’ll start doing this on a regular basis again.
p.s. i <3 trace.
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We’re opposites in the sense that I hate doing nothing… it drives me mad. This would be an interesting topic of conversation! No, really.
Anyways, I hope you’re doing well, and I hope you like the new job.
I disagree about the 85% bit. Also, “don’t want to do” and “actually entertaining” aren’t two sides of any coin. What about “sort of want to do” and “damn challenging”? That describes work and school for me. “Entertaining” is reserved for hobbies, but too much of any hobby gets boring sooner or later. Hobbies don’t make good careers except in rare cases… “Get paid to do what you love doing” is misleading. Otherwise we’d all be prostitutes.
Did you know multitasking makes you stupid? My solution is often to get really wired on coffee and blast away at one thing until I collapse in a heap. I never finish any work that way, but I can get 75% of it done and then move into ‘editing’ mode, which is a lot easier than staring at a blank page/screen/whatever.
i’ll rebut later. see, even now, i want to write a reply, but i’d still rather do nothing. and by all my counts, replying to a comment should be an ‘enjoyable’ or at least non-hated thing to do.
according to that link, it’s talking about learning while multitasking. i never do that. i’m not trying to accomplish anything with my many forms of stimulation. it’s really just various forms of nothing all at once. or maybe it is me zoning out and not using my brain because usually i’m thinking too goddamn much. i have to dumb myself down to focus on the tasks i have to accomplish because their tediousness frustrates the living hell out of me.
your solution would never work for me unless i had like two hours until it had to be finished. but again, we’re talking about things i’d have to do and not want. i guess i value my nothing time far more highly than anyone elses busy time.
if that made sense somehow, wow.
Trace Cyrus and the gang look like such douches.
But Metro Station is awesome. So it balances out.
P.S. Not to mention their video for ‘Control’ is a complete rip off of Tokio Hotel’s ‘Scream’. Bahhhh