i’m just going to leave this window open and write things/observations i think throughout the day.

i miss the days when daft punk was alive and well in clubs.

why are chicks always the bass player?

i hope i get to see juno this friday. hmm, but i’m supposed to have a patio bison burger lunch . . . i guess i’ll just have to trek it back.

i’m sick of not being the weight i want to be, but i’m too lazy to exercise and i like delicious food/alcohol too much.

my hair is ridiculously easy to curl.

i want my ddr mats to arrive so i can do something remotely active and break in a ‘new’ game at the same time.

paralyzers are scarily easy to drink.

i want professional head shots.

i finally updated wordpress, but the main problem i was having still isn’t solved. oh well, it’s not important anyway.

interstella 5555: the 5tory of the 5ecret 5tar 5ytem is awesome.

i need disposable income for games (xbox 360) and cute accessories and shoes.

how does dane cook keep getting movie roles?

i’m bored and hurty.

i think i’m done because my back hurts too much and i want to nap.

i shall listen to daft punk while i sleep.

a long time ago i wrote how i go through phases of interests. i’ll cycle through anime, music and video games as my main time eater. right now i’m in an anime/manga phase. reading off a computer screen is always annoying but paying $10 a book is more so. where is this leading? nowhere. i just want to listen to my anime music but can’t find anything to do that’s stimulating enough but not distracting. plus, my internet’s unbearably slow due to me downloading a gazillion anime series.

there are so many things i need to do. a lot of them i just think i need to do but they don’t really.

should i go to this concert tomorrow? i haven’t been out of the house in a while. god i’m sad.

i miss things. mexico or not? i really shouldn’t spend the money, but i really want to see incubus again. maybe i should send a message and see if my hunch is correct and then base it on that. at least then i know i’m not wasting money. it’s not a waste if that doesn’t happen, it’s just too expensive for right now.

there’s thanksgiving to ‘look forward to’. i’ll have fun on saturday.

bah. there’s so much i want to do creatively and career-wise etc, yet i never make a step towards any of it. even if i did do what i want to do so badly, i don’t know if i’d make it all the way through or even gain anything from it besides knowledge. i really just want to skip ahead and learn opera. or travel the world. i’m in a sighing mood.

it’s a bad combination. it leads to rumination. i sent out more emails for interviews though, so it’s not all bad.

tomorrow is driving and something else. i can’t stand to stay in again. i’m going to have to force myself onto someone else’s plans.

i wish i was tired.

i’ve gotten into the habit of window shopping on ebay. the hope of purchasing something new keeps me happy. wow, i’m so pathetic and riddled with problems. to be fair, i haven’t really bought anything for myself in a long time. i really wanted to wait until i had a job, but there’s this amazing ps2 package on ebay right now. i know it’s going to rocket up to at least $400 and i should buy the decent priced one that ends first, but i want it so badly. it has so many things in it that i want. there’s also a number of tablet pcs that are for sale that i want too. if only i’d gotten the job at yuk yuk’s. stupid place. they didn’t even let me know i wasn’t hired. i even sent her a thank you for the interview and she didn’t even respond to that. how unprofessional.

i guess i’ll go back to being more bored. i’m thirsty. it’s also unusually warm down here. i don’t like it. i still need to talk, but i haven’t felt like it and i don’t know if i ever will. it’ll be like talking to a wall with attitude. fun. *waves flags*

i am so bored, it’s not funny. i’m too restless to watch something. i have to be doing something when i listen to music. i hate having such a high stimulation threshold. yes, i probably just made that up, but i don’t care. i’d try going to sleep, but again, not stimulating enough. what’s worse, i’m in a picky bored mood, so i’m even less likely to find anything to do.

ach, my brain won’t function properly. i hate when i can’t remember a word. i have to move on otherwise it’s going to drive me nuts.

who’s up for republik all night on friday?

update - i think i’m finally tired enough to try and sleep. hooray!