i’d like to go for a walk. my main reasons being that it’s a lovely autumn day, i have a package to pick up and most importantly, i need to pick up my prescription as i’ve already skipped a day. however, given my condition due to the latter, i don’t really feel up to par for a walk nor any excursion that doesn’t involve a bed. oh yeah, i forgot to mention that i’m also exhausted due to my superior plan of staying up all night so i could walk to get my meds and package. stupid dizziness. i guess it also doesn’t help that all i’ve been watching for the past, well, twenty-four hours has been anime and you know what that means: subtitles. tv is a little more tiring when you have to read everything. don’t believe me? ask a deaf person or if you’re entirely pc, read a book.

i’m beginning to think (realize?) that this is only making sense/entertaining to me. off to my death walk. (i assume i’ll pass out or spin into some deadly trees on my way to the pharmacy, that’s if i even do go, which i probably won’t.)

i’m also pissed off but only when i think about it or it’s brought to my attention. *insert numerous japanese insults/swears*

have you ever looked at something that was so perfect it physically hurt?

i miss us. i don’t know what i’m going to do after the fourth. i’ll have nothing to base my life around. i guess there’ll be memories, but they’re fleeting. i need substance; a new obsession? ugh, how sad. again, the questions come pouring in.

i still haven’t even begun to try to think about writing. i’m terrible. with me every thing’s either terrible or awesome. ow, mi estómago. i should eat something. i didn’t even realize how long ago i’d heard of plain white t’s. i think they made up a word in harvey birdman. too bad, i liked it. my leg hurts.

okay, enough randomness. time to eat? . . .

don hertzfeldt cartoon

it made me laugh.

i think i’ll go to the library today.

update - i changed my mind.

i need to stop aspiring and trying. i have to stop worrying and thinking about what’s already been done. i need to just write.