i’ve been going to so many interviews and i’ve sent out even more resumes. things are going well. i’m temping tomorrow and the agency seems to be really good and eager to get me hired. i also have an interview with a talent agency on monday. that would be an awesome job if it paid just a little more. i guess it’s good for entry level though and it’s good experience in any case. i had an interview today with a consulting agency. that seems like a good job too. lots of opportunity for growth and the hours are pretty awesome. at the moment i have three possible full-time awesome jobs lined up. hopefully something will work out.

in other exciting news, i’m going to the chiodos show next thursday. i’m actually going because scary kids scaring kids is playing but i like chiodos too so it all works out. it would’ve been cheap if ticketmaster didn’t like ass raping so much. fecking bastards. i also want to go to a show tomorrow of a local band that i really like. anyone want to go? going to a show after work. ah, life, you are grand.

i should work for immortal. i love every band they sign. i think they know that too; they requested to be my friend on myspace. i love myspace.

now i’m going to watch secretary. hot!

i desperately need a job. why you may ask? to responsibly pay off my debts? so i can learn about finance management and pay bills? no. it’s so i can buy guitar hero III - legends of rock and the rock band special edition package. the rock band package is a sweet deal so i need to get money fast to pre-order it. come to think of it, i still need to pick up my paycheque and i have a government cheque to cash. that should cover the pre-order. should i do the responsible thing and pay things off instead? meh, i’ll do that when i have a job. there’s always christmas too. ooh, i can’t wait.

• apply for passport renewal
• get job
• buy concert tickets
• book package deal to mexico
• save money for said trip to mexico
• have best time of life
• pay off debts for many, many years

does anyone know if google ads are worth it? i’ve been thinking about it just because.

i could probably sing all of morning view (ouch it only got 2 1/2 stars from rolling stone. they suck anyway), including all the harmonies and embellishments (even the ones that have only been done a few times in live performances), in my sleep. how’s that for a run-on sentence?

to say he only ever had two lessons, b’s a pretty good singer, technically i mean. he’s only gotten better too. most people get gradually worse, but his technique’s improved. his diction and phrasing has always been above par in the ‘pop’ world. i suppose that comes with being a poet. hehe, he’s a poet. that sounds so funny. he’s really settled into what he can do. he’s only thirty-one. that’s quite a feat. a lot of people can’t be taught that kind of control, let alone grasp it naturally. gee whitney, do you really need to be singing (pun unintended) his praises anymore? we all know he’s perfectly perfect in every way. it would be really bad if he somehow read this one day. it’s not entirely impossible.

it still blows my mind. it seriously feels like some wonderful dream that happened. of course there’s little secrets that i keep which make the night even more special, but i’ll never tell. (more…)

that statement may come off wrong. i’ve never disliked my skin colour or my cultural background simply because it makes me so unique. i’ve never had anyone say bad things about it, only good. however, for certain reasons i wish i looked a tiny bit more ‘white’, for lack of a better term.

there are certain looks that are hard to pull off when not white. a few examples: goth, pin-up, victorian etc. it just doesn’t fit as well with darker skin. i could probably look the part easier with blonde hair, but that kind of goes against the part too.

why do i care so much? i don’t really. i guess i just find it frustrating that my looks have limits. it’s also hard to get really brightly coloured eye make-up to stand out. i never want to put too much on because i feel like it’s exactly that: too much. later when i look at pictures or see other women, i clearly have less make-up on. i already feel like every one’s looking at me without tons of make-up, so even though it makes me happy because it completes my creative idea, i don’t do it.

i guess this all has to do with my new ‘project’. i’m really just doing it for creative purposes because i’ve stalled musically for so long and i have yet to explore the visual side. i’m kind of hoping that i can gain a new perspective and be kicked into composing again. i’m buying a camcorder and i’m going to be taping myself. yes, i’m going to be a youtube/myspace/camwhore. well, maybe not. i haven’t really decided if i’ll post online or not. i’ve already bought a 500 gb external hard drive for the editing and such. i was due for more space. in any case, i figure it’s something i should do for the experience alone. it involves my creative, technical and business sides all in one package. who knows what’ll come from this?

hoping to sell my soul for fame . . . i completely belong in l.a.

same deal as the first one. (more…)