it’s amazing how a few little pieces of information can completely flip the way you see a person. oh well, i guess it’s natural and completely fine, just totally unexpected. i’m too drunk to write right now but things blew my mind tonight.

i miss people. i need people.

i’m fat. i need to work out again. i’ll get on that on thursday. too much to do in-between.

i’m happy, but it’s bitter sweet.

my goal for the summer: to look super hot in this

ugh, lot of hard work ahead. i think it’ll be worth it.

p.s. i mean the bikini, not sports illustrated magazine, just in case you were confused. hah.

i finally had an awesome dream! it was awesome. that one’s definitely a keeper. why am i writing this now? to procrastinate, of course. i still have to start some sort of dream journal. my problem is that i can’t write fast enough to get all the main points down. anyway, off to not be a fat slob.

woo! canada wins the gold! not a bad looking team either.

after seeing pictures of me that were taken today, i know for sure that i desperately need to lose weight.

p.s. i miss my jeff.

start working out. seriously.

and eat better.

update - does it make me a nerd if i get really, really excited about listening to the incubus album with headphones? yes? yeah, i thought so. i can’t believe i haven’t done it yet. i know what i’m doing to fall asleep tonight/this morning. hehehee. yay! so excited!