obliviously obvious

thanks to the dream i had last night i feel like dating a scenester. you know the type. i don’t know what’s wrong with me. i guess scene kids aren’t all that bad. they’re just usually dumb. some of them have a tongue-in-cheek approach to the whole thing and like it purely for aesthetics, which i guess might make them genuine scenesters. i’ll admit if i was younger and had fewer brain cells i’m sure i’d dabble in it; i have a penchant for faux glam/grunge pop-rock style. i did, after all, buy a handcuff necklace and guitar pick bracelet two weeks ago. i’m assuming that’s what i have to pick up from the post office. $8 charge on a package worth $25. that’s a kick in the non-existent balls. i wasn’t expecting that. you can be sure i’ll be asking about it.

i think i’ll finally pick up my paycheque tomorrow. i don’t know why they can’t just send it to me. oh well. i have to return their shirt too. i’ll have to febreze it because i left it wet too long before putting it in the dryer and now it smells foisty. maybe i’ll just do that load again since the whole load went that way.

i might put in resumes tomorrow. i’m definitely going grocery shopping. there are certain things i need and have been craving. i should get in contact with wind-up records. hmm, maybe not yet.

i guess with a full day planned i should sleep. it’s my damn music ocd acting up again.

random aside: i think i’m a d now. at first i thought it was just going to be temporary but they’ve stuck around for a good four months or so. i guess it’s good because i haven’t gained weight. i do need to lose fat and tone though. that’s the tough stuff. blah.

a long time ago i wrote how i go through phases of interests. i’ll cycle through anime, music and video games as my main time eater. right now i’m in an anime/manga phase. reading off a computer screen is always annoying but paying $10 a book is more so. where is this leading? nowhere. i just want to listen to my anime music but can’t find anything to do that’s stimulating enough but not distracting. plus, my internet’s unbearably slow due to me downloading a gazillion anime series.

there are so many things i need to do. a lot of them i just think i need to do but they don’t really.

should i go to this concert tomorrow? i haven’t been out of the house in a while. god i’m sad.

i miss things. mexico or not? i really shouldn’t spend the money, but i really want to see incubus again. maybe i should send a message and see if my hunch is correct and then base it on that. at least then i know i’m not wasting money. it’s not a waste if that doesn’t happen, it’s just too expensive for right now.

there’s thanksgiving to ‘look forward to’. i’ll have fun on saturday.

bah. there’s so much i want to do creatively and career-wise etc, yet i never make a step towards any of it. even if i did do what i want to do so badly, i don’t know if i’d make it all the way through or even gain anything from it besides knowledge. i really just want to skip ahead and learn opera. or travel the world. i’m in a sighing mood.

new layout again. i’m too lazy and hungry to format everything to my tastes, but this will be by far the most customized of them all when i get around to it. i just have to find the right image. i have to do colours and all that nonsense as well. i hate deciding on colour schemes.

update – this will be the layout for the interim while i find an image and fix the code with the other.

another upgrade from wordpress. it’s easy enough, but i’m too tired to do it now.

can’t wait for mexico! i’m crazy.

i’m so far behind in reading the iov boards; i’m dreading it. i keep putting it off because i know i’ll have shitloads to read, including a write-up of an afterparty that i’m looking forward to. i also haven’t had my meds in 3? days, so everything is dizzy and i’m fucking nuts. my dreams are so far beyond crazy right now. to add to it, they’re even more realistic. like i really needed that.

i’m so hungry. i half-dreamed about eating cream of chicken soup with crackers. of course, we don’t have any crackers and they’re the part that seals the deal. so i ordered mr sub. i should probably go wait for that upstairs. oh yeah, so much delicious food.

god i’m dizzy.

holy typo nightmare, batman!

• sleep
• clean room
• do laundry
• do various homework
• fill out sheets for missed tests, exams etc.
• remove head from pretty little ass and hope i can salvage my education somehow
• call mike, maybe